First of all, I’d like to apologize in advance for the following egoism. I feel like this post is going to be full of me, I, my, mine, myself and other me-talk. It is incredible difficult, if not impossible, to tell you what I am about to tell you, without me-talk. Unless of course, I start referring myself as she, but I’m not at all sure it would be a good idea. So, my lovely readers, I can’t but ask you to bear with me, myself and I. 🙂
It has been two weeks since I posted last. It is almost hilarious how much has happened meanwhile and how much I have realised about myself. Feels more like months than 14 days. As some of you know already, these realisations are a consequence of something that happened a week ago, on a cold Saturday night. So, what have I realised and where is my heart leading to? That is what I want to tell you guys today.
Last Sunday, at 10 am, you were supposed to be able to read about my Christmas present ideas for minimalists. As I have already shared on Instagram, at the last minute I decided not to publish the post at all. Somehow, it just didn’t seem quite right. My mind was saying that everything was in order and all was good. However, at same time my heart kept questioning everything. Now some of you might wonder, whether everything has to feel absolutely right all the time. Well, I can only speak for myself when I say that yes, yes it definitely has to. For me at least. Last Saturday confirmed it 100 %.
I was spending a quiet night with my husband watching a Tony Robbin’s documentary from Netflix. The documentary, called I am not your Guru, includes moments from Tony’s Date with Destiny -tour, a tour organized to help people find their own motivation. While sitting comfortable in the couch, my husband’s arm around me, watching tv, laughing and crying uncontrollably, something clicked. I realised something that has been obvious to my husband and in some ways to me as well. I care about people so much, that it is against my nature to write about everyday superficial subjects. I am not the right person to write a typical lifestyle blog or share tips about Christmas presents or the colors of a harmonious wardrobe. It’s not that there is anything wrong with that, it just isn’t me.
I have always been different than everyone around me. I don’t fit in any box called normal and I don’t actually even desire to. From the bottom of my heart, I am a helper. I wish to help people and change the world. I wish to feel like I have made a difference in this universe and the one thing I leave behind is happiness. I am not your next Tony Robbins, nor do I want to be. I am sincerely me, even though I agree with so many things Tony Robbins, Gary Vee and other smart people are saying.
My latest post about Hsp’s relationships was incredibly well-received and I feel so humble and grateful for all the comments I got. I am so blessed to see that something I wrote actually helped people like me. The feeling I get when I am able to help is like oxygen. It makes me happy and grateful about life. Thus, I have solemnly decided that from now on, I’m going to be true not just to you but also myself and lead this blog where my heart says, towards things I love. I want to help, to by best ability, because by helping others I do what I believe I was always meant for.
If you’re still reading this, you might wonder what all of this means for Happy beginning. The blog has started the way I wanted it to and thus far I have published posts that came from my heart. Luckily, I was able to hit the brakes before any ‘superficial’ content was aired, and this is what I am going to do in the future as well. Every time a new blogpost is published, I promise you (and me) that it’s going to be words straight from my heart. As I have mentioned before, we Hsps enjoy deep and meaningful conversations. As such I see this blog, a deep conversation with you all.
So, I am proud to announce that I have deleted a list from my phone that contained writing subjects from capsule wardrobe challenge, best clothing materials for Hsp’s to Konmari-method. If these are subjects you could have enjoyed, I am sorry. Except that I’m really not. It is better for you to know the real me, not a blog-me. I am also happy to let you know that at the moment my phone doesn’t include a single list concerning this blog. There are millions of thoughts and ideas going through my brain, subjects that could be helpful to you. I’ll write as fast as my fingers can run in the keyboard, but I am still trying to keep the post coming approximately once a week. In the meantime, you can find me, my thoughts and moments of my everyday life on Instagram.
I am here, because I wish to help us all follow our hearts and find our own Disney inspired lives. And remember, if someone says that there is no such thing, that’s a bunch of bull. Create your own fairytale. ❤